I sprained my back today morning..today is a totally unlucky day for me..late for interview becoz i woke up late..therefore failed my interview test..got another chance to re-interview on monday.. Went to see TCM doc just now.. my back pain wasn't that bad in the morning, but it got worst when I was in school..I couldn't even walk because I cant stand up straight and every step I take is a strain to my back-.- wth...bloody hell unlucky day.. now my feet have blisters..wth?

Today's unlucky day encounters:

• Late + fail for interview
• Sprained back muscle
• Blisters on feet
  

I wonder what will happen during these 3 months and after the 3 months..will my life change drastically?or will it not? I'm uncertain about it too.

Confusion. Uncertainty. Hurt. Very hurt.
Why must something like that happen to me? Why cant it go smoothly? Why is it always like that? I knew history would repeat itself. I'm really a stupid girl ain't I?
Hope. Broken hopes. Broken promises. Broken ....

I haven't been able to sleep well for the past week..today early morning was quite bad..I went to lie on bed at 12+am..but couldn't really sleep till it was around 1+am..and at 2.53am, I woke up..since then I couldn't go back to sleep..not until around 5+am. Thinking about some stuff. And gastric pain at around 4+am-.- because I didn't have my dinner yesterday night. Recently don't have much appetite though..I wonder why/what could be the problem. Perhaps I'm just troubled.

One of my best frens I'hv known in my secondary school life, contacted me..asking me whether I wanna join the "6F" gathering..I was shocked abt the idea..but I know most probably I wont go..because of what happened between me and another fren in the "6F"..I dun wanna talk abt it since it's the past already..and because of that incident, I'hv sort of become a less cheerful person..and have a phobia of having very good frens leave me..that's what I fear..and I'hv also become more introverted..? Jealous easily? there are some now..but I dun wanna name them though..I know because it's my fault..my negligence that caused me to become like that..
According to my sis, I have TD-.- site says I have MD..my reaction was "wow-.-" = ironic wowness..

*ironic laughs* am I or am I not? Bad/unlucky events happen to my frens..of a certain age though..92 year..i wonder why..seriously.... bad events happened to him..now..it's her.. it's like neverending..and it's like whenever my relationship with the both of them are good, bad events just happen.. I feel so bad..maybe it's really my fault..my unluckiness..?that made them suffer? I dunno..my junior is experiencing great distress now becoz of some problems.. I begin to think whether I bring bad luck to everyone around me..whom are close to me.. hahs..maybe I really am a bad luck girl..